Have you ever had to put on a fake face in front o people? I know that there is a major percent of people that would readily admit that they have had to pretend to be someone they are not.
This poem is a tribute to that time in my life in where I felt like I had to wear a clown face in order to divert attention away from the real life events that were happening in my life and at home. It served its purpose in my eyes, but it was exhausting to keep up the facade. I think that is why I enjoyed playing football so much because I could be a bruiser, a bad-ass behind the mask and the uniform.
There is no reason as to why anyone should be forced to wear a mask, but life throws these interesting circumstances at us that has us scramble for safety. I scrambled and came up with trying to be silly and funny all the time so that no one got to know the real me. I pretended that everything was okay, but the reality was that I was dying inside. It was a saving grace to have someone every now and then tell me that I was worth it and that everything was going to be okay because it is what helped me eventually put down the mask. Wow, what a relief it was! I felt that I could breathe.
Have you ever felt this way? It's an amazing feeling! If you still feel that you have to wear that mask, I am reassuring you that you are already enough and that you are part of what makes the sun bright and the oceans blue! Keep reading and or watching positive materials that can help you shed the shame! It's very worth it!